Independence has always played a big role in my life. It is probably due to the fact that I don’t have any siblings and that all of the attention my mother can shower is on me, I crave for more independence than I am already granted. I feel the need to prove to people (but mostly just to my mother) that I can do everything on my own already. For the past couple of months I have been feeling very independent. But when I think about it, I maybe have just become reliant on other things.
I rely on my best friend whenever I’m in a deep quandary that I don’t think I can face alone. I would tell her everything that I feel and would pour my heart out to her. She would help me get over it and support me through the process of handling it properly. She knows my weaknesses and assists me to not fall into a trap I would probably dig for myself.
I rely on the “green revolution”, coffee and chocolates. They help keep me awake whenever I’m driving in the wee hours of the morning. Every stick constitutes a certain high or relief that helps in relinquishing the bits of stress I would experience on a day-to-day basis. The effect of the greens on me is a sure fire way that would aid me to get back on my feet and continue with the good things happening and forget the negative ones.
But being independent you learn how to deal with your problems properly and knowing what things can make or break you – you get to know yourself even better and discover things you’ve never known about yourself before. You now appreciate more things than you have ever had. You now become more grateful of the smallest things because they matter to you – and they just do. You enjoy things much better and have a better life in general. Independence comes with freedom – you are freed from the things that tie you down and rejoice in the fact that you can handle yourself, with or without the help of certain things. You are freed from the idea of not knowing how to make things sail better (for you). You know your better version, and you know how to get there.